There was a strong sense in my life that I was fake. I even had people tell me this.
It bothered me that in all my interactions, I felt like I really wasn’t being me.
If someone was having a conversation with me, and had a different point of view, I would always align and agree with the other person's point of view to fit in.
If someone was being mean, or projecting jealousy, hate toward me, I would still stick around the person or people, even though I knew this was abusive.
Things have changed for me...
I was recently at an event around two individuals that were trying to bully me into believing I was small and pathetic.
Normally, I would stick around and try to understand why someone would try and do this? Or I would start to turn myself down to match their energy.
This time, I recognized the energy that they were projecting and chose that this energy was something I was not choosing to create as my reality.
I didn’t make these people right or wrong - I simply walked away, and acknowledged that what they were projecting was not kind to me and this is something that did not work for me.
Choosing for me is choosing energies that are congruent with what I desire to create as my life.
If it’s not a match, I simply walk away and choose something different.
I am now willing to lose people or things that are not contributing to me.
I am now willing to choose beyond obligation.
The greatest gift we have is choice - the choice to keep choosing, and the choice to create our lives.
What would you like to create as your life and living?
Who are you unwilling to lose that if you would lose them would create more space in your life?
When I became aware that being fake was a way for me to fit in, choose small, be likable, be unwilling to receive judgement ...everything changed and I actually started creating the life I desired to create.
I became the choosing one in my life instead of the chosen one.
I lowered my barriers and allowed people to see me.
Are you willing to have your own back?
Are you willing to show up for you?